Monday, February 17, 2014
Sinus Trouble 1985
Nemesis:The Greeks personified vengeful fate as a remorseless goddess: the goddess of revenge. The name Nemesis is related to the Greek word νέμειν [némein], meaning "to give what is due". Wikipedia
..an opponent or enemy that is very difficult to defeat. Merriam Webster Online Dictionary
When I was in my early 20's I contracted a cold, got sick, felt bad, and then waited for the cold to go away. It didn't. It was my first encounter with what was to become my life long nemesis: the sinus infection. With my bad math, I figure that I have had approximately 40 sinus infections since then. According to what I'm finding out about Nemesis, the Greek Goddess, her job is to dole out retribution, usually when people are a little too full of themselves, and lack hubris, needing to be brought down a notch or two. Her job is to keep things in balance, not letting people be either too happy or too sad.
When I'm sick with a sinusitis my IQ drops by about 20 points, I have no energy, and I find it very difficult to do even the simplest of tasks. I despair, I worry, I feel horribly sorry for myself. I cry, I sleep a lot. On the other hand, because I have this chronic condition, I have a terrifically healthy lifestyle: I exercise, I get enough sleep, I meditate, I have a diet that has absolutely no crap in it. My studio is solvent free and I'm very careful about what I breathe. I've learned to lessen my stress, and be kinder and more patient with myself. I'd like to defeat this "opponent", but I'm not even sure what that means: is it learning how not to get sick in the first place, or does real defeat mean that I just accept and live with my condition? Whatever it ends up being, I would really, really, love to get this particular Greek Goddess off my back.